i had a nightmare last night. that i wasn’t functioning for a long period of time. that i couldn’t deliver what i promised. that they had to get someone else to do things for me. and that made me feel really horrible.
in the dream, i was waking up and checking my phone. and that’s when i got the messages. that they waited 3 months for me, but in the end got someone else to do it for me in 3 days.
i felt horrible. i felt motionless. i felt very useless.